The Story of K part V

Parts I, II, III, & IV here, here, here & here.

C and I sat in that confined space for a good 4-5 hours talking about everything. She could not see what I was doing with K. I, of course, tried to list his good qualities. For every one I named, she threw my earlier words back at me. She pointed out everything that I was too blind to see. I insisted that we were just going through a rough patch and we’d get over it.

I decided not to go to the party with my roommate (who gave me mucho shit about that for weeks after) and went home to be with K. I thought he’d be happy to see me and get to spend some time since he complained that I never came home. NOPE. We ended up getting into the biggest argument about nothing and he broke up with me. I was devastated. Went back to school and moved through the days like a zombie.

He had been such an integral part of my life for so long that I thought I was going to die without him. I became hella withdrawn and damn near flunked out of school. I wound up leaving university after that semester and moving back home. I’d see him very often and he’d look right though me as if I didn’t exist. I later found out that he’d be cheating on me for the majority of our relationship.

The whole “I like you so much” act that he played in the beginning? A front. He later told a mutual friend that he played that friend card to his advantage. He could see the insecurities and use them to manipulate me into doing whatever he wanted. My god was I gutted once I heard about that (years after the fact, natch). After him though, I was basically unable to trust any dude. I consistently questioned motives, which lead to some interesting dating experiences. It also lead to me thinking that I found my soul mate on the internet…but that’s another story for another day. 😉

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