Blast From the Past

A few years back I had a livejournal. Well, I shouldn’t use it in the past tense because I still have the journal, I just don’t write in it. At any rate, I was looking for a piece I’d written a while back and knew it was on the LJ, so I decided to browse it. In my meanderings, I found the italicized text below. Since I can’t find inspiration with a road map & GPS, I’m gonna sift through my old LJ entries and post a few that I like. 🙂

Jun. 9th, 2005 at 7:51 AM

I’m so stressed from constantly being around my family (nuclear and extended ) and I just need a break…permanently, lmao! Okay not perma-break, but a long one. A really long one. Sometimes there’s such a thing as too much togetherness. I think my family suffers from that extensively. Although, they’re great (at most times) and I love them to death, I think they’re detrimental to my growth. And it’s only because I allow them to be. No one is really an encouraging figure in this family (speaking of mom’s side, don’t really interact much with dad’s side). Many times dreams of the youth in this family are stunted not by someone on the outside, but someone in the family, who is supposed to be your support system and have your back. It’s almost as if they’re rooting for you to fail, so that they can have yet another thing to criticize, tease, and berate you about. It’s sad and it kills me.

As cheezy as this sounds, a little piece inside of me dies everytime I hear someone downing someone else. Most times they’re doubting the person because they went for the same dream and failed to achieve it. They figure that since they didn’t make it, this other person won’t either. Well, jackass, if you’d actually help the younger person see the mistakes you made on your journey and give them advice on his/her journey, then *gasp* this person might just make it!

People always say, “Oh sticks and stones may break your bones, but words can’t ever harm you.” Bullshit, I say! Sticks and stones will break your bones and words can damage a soul. No one realizes the impact of words. As many times as one says, “Oh I didn’t mean that. I take it back!”, it really isn’t taken back. Those words spoken in the heat of the moment are your true feelings and once they exploded out of your mouth and into the universe, they are forever bonded to you and branded upon the person you spoke them unto. If people took the time to speak before just running off at the mouth, we would be a lot more surprised at how much better we could communicate. Instead we just spout off shit continuously without thinking about the repercussions of our words.

The other day I heard a parent call their child stupid and ugly. I wanted to beat the brakes off of that bitch! The child was no older than 8 or 9, how dare she? Some people just should be allowed to have children. I’ve never been a parent so I don’t know what it’s like to raise a child, but I’ve been pretty damn close. I’ve helped numerous family members guide their children in the right direction. Yes, it is exasperating. Yes, they will work your nerves til the point where you wanna beat the dogshit out of them, but you don’t! You love that child. You encourage that child. You discipline that child within reason. You teach that child. You help mold their ideas and views of the world. You encourage that child’s dreams and do everything within your power to help that child accomplish them.

Oh God this is becoming long and preachy and off subject. These are just some of the things in my head that I guess I needed to get out on this Thursday morning before I get ready for work…



3 thoughts on “Blast From the Past

  1. I’ve very close to my family and I see them about 2 times a week. The past year has brought lots of changes to my family- 1st I broke off my engagement, then my sister and her hubby separated, and now, my other sister and her hubby are separating. It has been very tense to say the least. My parents are both old school sicilians, and my mother has some ass backward ways.

    It’s funny, when I was younger, I used to think that my dad was so behind the times. Now a days it is my mother. Instead of being supportive of my sisters and I, she brings them down. Asks them what they did wrong to ruin the marriages WTF!!! Cheaters are cheaters, and you can’t make someone be truthful to you. I wish that she would just tell them that she is there for them and that she loves them.

    I don’t know if she realizes that she is doing this, but it is hurtful. My mother has always been a great mom and would do anything for her children. Maybe she just doesn’t know what to say? I’m not sure, but I do find myself saying that I need to take a break from my family lots theses days.

  2. Sticks and stones will break your bones and words can damage a soul. – I love this sentence! I think it is exactly right!! I remember things people say to me all the time. It sucks when it’s the bad instead of the good. I’m not sure if it’s because that’s how my mind works but your statement is so right on!

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