30 x 30: Update #1

Well it’s been a smooth 2 months since the big 2-9 and I’ve…well I’ve slacked mightily on my 30 x 30 list. I cannot say that I have fully completed any of these tasks yet mainly because I have been busy like a bee between acquiring new job responsibilities and social commitments on the weekends. YES, honey, I have a social life now…sometimes. Heh. Anyway, the other day I was gazing longingly at the list and realized that I need to make a few tweaks. So here’s an update to lay out those tweaks amongst other things.

2.    Lose 40 lbs. Welp let’s change that 40 to 70. Because well, read this: http://thelionqn.tumblr.com/post/11955993174/yesterday I actually want to keep a running tab on this process because I need to be held accountable for it. So if I make a call to arms for folks to ask me “Have you taken yo’ fat ass to the gym today?” I expect for y’all to step up! All 3.72 of y’all who read this blog. ^_^

4.    Learn how to knit. Petite update on this: I bought yarn/needles. Just gotta carve out a space to get some youtube video tutorial watching on. *cabbage patches*

9.   See a concert at three different, lesser known Chicago live music venues. Sara Bareilles at Congress Theater on 10/11. That’s one!

10.    Unplug digitally for two weeks. No FB, no Twitter, no Tumblr, no blogging, etc. Welp this one is off the books. Namely because I am stepping into a role in which I will be the social media ambassador for one of our branded web properties. Seeing as how it’ll be my job to be plugged in, unplugging could prove to be troublesome. So its replacement will be Complete NaNoWriMo. Mighty big britches to fill, but I’m up for the challenge.

11.   Join a gym. My coworker has generously allowed me unlimited guest privileges for le free, so I will replace this with Reduce my debt by 50%. Again, a big undertaking, but I need to make strides to make my life better, so here we go. I hope Jesus walks with me.

22.    Hand write a letter a month. Cheating a little coz I sent cards with handwritten notes, but totally counting those. Two months down…fuggwimmeh.

Stay tuned for more updates as they come!

My Own Worst Enemy (not that Lit song)

I had to take some time out of my work day to blog and tell myself to shut the fuck up. I’m over here talking myself out of grad school before I’ve even fully began the process. I was sitting here chatting with a friend about peer reviewing/editing a paper she’d written for school and somewhere along the way I started freaking myself out.

See, I want to begin applying for grad school by the end of the first quarter of next year. I graduated from undergrad a while ago and have had no lasting relationships with any of my professors or advisers or university officials since. I’m not necessarily a person who leaves a lasting impression (more on that…never), so I’m sure that attempts to reach back and ask for letters of recommendation would probably be met with either blank stares or uproariously laughter. Every program that I’m considering says that letter from former professors or university officials are recommended, but letter from previous employers/professionals who are aware of your work ethic are also accepted.

I have a few people I can call on for this request, but instead of me thinking about it in that regard, I immediately began to try to talk myself out of it. This is a recurring theme in my life and I’m happy to say that now since I recognize it, I am working hard to rectify and change that behavior. I honestly think that the main reason why I cannot seem to find a job that I really enjoy or move away from the Chicagoland area for an extended amount of time is because I tend to talk myself out of taking risks. Even calculated ones (see: my move to LA). Whenever things seems like the tiniest bit of obstacles or resistance may occur, I’m quick to run in the opposite direction.

I have to stop. Clearly, nothing’s doing with me living my life in this way. Time to step out on faith and hope I don’t crash.